Can I start this day all over again. Can I hope that I am really just dreaming and that I am going to wake up at any moment and get that feeling of relief that only comes from waking up to a bad dream.
I am not dreaming. I did have a
embarrassing moment in church today. For me it tops the time Caleb came walking into the chapel after going to the bathroom with his pants around the bottom of his feet. In his case he was only four but that is another story.
My kids were just not good in Sacrament meeting today. I wonder if any of that Easter candy had anything to do with it. This is another story too.
I was stopped by the Relief Society
Chorister and she asked me if I would lead the music in Relief Society. She need to get home to a sick child. I of course said yes but that I really didn't know what I was doing. She said the songs where in 3/4 and 4/4. Sure I can to that.
I was so nervous I have not led music since I was in young
womens and than you can just flare your arms and no one really cares.
It was hard. Now this song had 4
versus. Guess what I did in my very nervous state. I closed the song after the 3rd verse. Yes I closed the song and sat down. Everyone was like Danette there is still another verse. One lady jokingly said the fourth verse is the most important.
I cried during the opening prayer. I wanted to get up leave the room and hide my
embarrassed self . I told myself I have two options. Run or suck it up and laugh too. I sucked it up but I could not laugh. I stopped the tears and got up for the practise hymn and lead the song.
Oh how I really just wanted to leave. It took every ounce of courage I had to stay and finish what I had started.
I stayed.
I stayed.
I stayed.
For me this is a small
miracle. Especially in my current state of ...........
The
embarrassment didn't stop just because I continued to lead the music because when church was over with as I was walking down the halls for me it felt like all the ladies were silently laughing or at least thinking "At least it wasn't me".
Moral of the story. Conducting music is really hard.