Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Surprises and Secrets

Oh how I hate surprises and secrets. If you ask anyone who knows me well they will tell you this is very true.

When I read a book I am always skipping ahead. I usually read the last chapter first. I always want to know how a movie is going to end before I go and see it.

Birthdays and Christmas are the worst. If I could I would buy all the presents on the last day, because I hate finding a gift I know someone will love and then I have to wait to give it to them. I usually end up showing my kids at least one gift I got them because I just can't wait.

Why do I bring this all up well my family has a big secret we have been keeping. A big surprise. We have this wonderful gift. I just can't wait for Christmas to come. I want everyone to know what this gift is.

We were going to wait to tell the world. Somehow this little secret/surprise is out there.
My kids know, my parents, my in-laws. So is everyone else dying to know what it is. I am dying to tell you trust me I wanted to shout our secret/surprise when we first found out about this gift.

Are sure you want to know.


It is a big surprise I would not want to ruin the surprise for you.

Okay, only because I really hate keeping surprises and secrets.

We are having a BABY. Our 5th child is due on December 11, 2009. We are super excited about this baby.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Why me? So embarressed. Can I please just go and hide.

Can I start this day all over again. Can I hope that I am really just dreaming and that I am going to wake up at any moment and get that feeling of relief that only comes from waking up to a bad dream.

I am not dreaming. I did have a embarrassing moment in church today. For me it tops the time Caleb came walking into the chapel after going to the bathroom with his pants around the bottom of his feet. In his case he was only four but that is another story.

My kids were just not good in Sacrament meeting today. I wonder if any of that Easter candy had anything to do with it. This is another story too.

I was stopped by the Relief Society Chorister and she asked me if I would lead the music in Relief Society. She need to get home to a sick child. I of course said yes but that I really didn't know what I was doing. She said the songs where in 3/4 and 4/4. Sure I can to that.

I was so nervous I have not led music since I was in young womens and than you can just flare your arms and no one really cares.

It was hard. Now this song had 4 versus. Guess what I did in my very nervous state. I closed the song after the 3rd verse. Yes I closed the song and sat down. Everyone was like Danette there is still another verse. One lady jokingly said the fourth verse is the most important.

I cried during the opening prayer. I wanted to get up leave the room and hide my embarrassed self . I told myself I have two options. Run or suck it up and laugh too. I sucked it up but I could not laugh. I stopped the tears and got up for the practise hymn and lead the song.

Oh how I really just wanted to leave. It took every ounce of courage I had to stay and finish what I had started.

I stayed.

I stayed.

I stayed.

For me this is a small miracle. Especially in my current state of ...........

The embarrassment didn't stop just because I continued to lead the music because when church was over with as I was walking down the halls for me it felt like all the ladies were silently laughing or at least thinking "At least it wasn't me".

Moral of the story. Conducting music is really hard.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

4 -4-09

What does today bring.

1. General Conference. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints 179th annual conference.

2. A new baby, My friend had her sweet little girl at 9:59 am, and I was able to be there.

3. The end of the strep throat. Marysa, Josh, and Azalea all got it.

4. No insurance. Andrew starts a new Job on Monday. Insurance for his old job expired at midnight. New insurance picks up on monday.

5. A new apostle - Elder Neil L Andersen

6. Its my half birthday. That is right I am 29 1/2 today. So in Marysa's words " that means you are almost 30" . Yes in 6 short months I will be 30. Not sure how I feel about that.

7. Its a light snowy day.

8. Its Saturday that is always good.

9. A messy house.

10. Lots and lots of yummy hugs and kisses.

Friday, April 3, 2009

A new sleep.

Two very big sleeping changes have happened at my house.

1. My baby sleeps in a big bed now and its all my fault. I should be really happy about it but... I am not. We bought a bunk bed for the boys a couple of months ago. The intent was to let Josh continue sleeping in his crib for at least another 9 months. He was 21 months when we bought them and i figured I would move him when he was about 2 1/2.

I was wondering how he would do on the bottom bunk. I told him if he got out I would but him right back in his crib. He got out of the bed once so I put him in his crib. He cried for awhile and so I gave him one more chance. He stayed in bed he didn't get out.

He loves the bed. He is really obedient. I will lay down with him for about 5 minutes and then I leave and he stays in bed and goes to sleep.

Funny story really quick. I put him down for a nap one day and he got out of bed . The door was shut so I let him just cry. He only cried for about 3 minutes. When I went to go check on him I couldn't see him.

Silly boy had climbed up the latter to the bunk bed and had fallen asleep on Caleb's bed. Josh is a pro at climbing up and down the bunk bed.

I just can not get myself to take down the crib yet. I am not ready for my baby to be sleeping in a big bed. Joshua respects his freedom. That I love I hope it is something that will always stick with him.

2. We are the proud owners of a c-pap machine. Andrew had a sleep study done and he has sleep apnea. The cure a c-pap machine. We have only had it for 2 nights but it is a wonderful thing.